Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Doaku

Adakah hilang yang sementara?
Harapanku, 
semoga bukan yang satu ini
berat rasanya, 
terseok-seok di sisi jalan pengganti
lelah, 
menumpu tubuh tanpa jiwa seorang diri
jadikan saja ini abadi
keluh pun tak dapat membantu, kan?

Bogor, Juli 2015.

Dalam Sepiku

Aku termenung,
menikmati duri yang kau beri
yang paling menghujam
yang merenggut ramai hari ini

Aku resah,
bagai pelancong di arah Barat
yang jejaknya terekam 
yang bayangnya tereka 

Meski dalam angan, 
sulitku bertahan
hanya berbisik dapat ku penuhi,
yang lain? 
Masih tertanam dalam sepi.

Bogor, Juli 2015.

Monday, June 8, 2015

a very short thank you note

And...,
after what you have heard,
thank you for being so appreciative back then.
Thank you for not being rude or cocky,
thank you for listening, thank you for being cool with it.
Thank you for letting me taste the unattainable feelings.
Thank you for every moment you shared with me.
For being such a good co-worker,
for willing to be the inspiration of my writings,
for teaching me how to be different with other,
also, for being in my days,
thank you.

I wish you a very happy life, I wish you a very great future ahead.
I hope you won't give up on your dreams,
no matter how hard it is to reach it, I hope you'll get it someday.
I apologize if I couldn't handle that situation very well, sorry I was such an idiot there. I wasn't ready for what you asked me, I wasn't prepared for what you said.
I'm not good at expressing my feelings and or my thoughts, so I let them scream in every writings of mine.

I guess this is the right time for me to start a new chapter and just live in the moment.
As I write this, I'm officially trying to get rid of you.
Once again, thank you for being you.




Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Payah #1

Keseringan nulis-nulis di blog dan di tempat lainnya sih, jadi pas harus ngomong langsung gabisa apa-apa kan lo def. 

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Trilogi Tak Bernama


Bianglala enggan berputar
Ia berhenti, diam
Arah barat!
Jingga lalu violet
Perlahan-lahan,
berhati-hati sekali, Tuan?
Sampai-sampai dapat didengar desirnya
Sesekali bergemuruh
Wajarkah?
Begitu menawan hati,
jua menyiksa akal
Angin halus menerpa
Tak apa,
kemudian terpejam,
lalu terbelalak
Ratusan kelalawar mulai keluar dari gua tepi pantai,
beterbangan tanpa arah di atas lepasnya

Mengapa menikmati?

Bianglala tak kunjung bergerak
Seperti selamanya akan beku oleh debu
      Hei, bukannya kita harus kembali ke pondok masing-                                                                       masing?

                                                                   Akhirnya melompat,
                                                                   mati,
                                                                  tapi bahagia.

                                                                       Begitu akhir kisah dari trilogi tak bernama.



/Bogor, 18 April 2015
 pukul 5.00 sore//

Friday, March 13, 2015

Delusi

Semakin lama 
Mengakar
Terkadang takut
Tapi berpapasan,
bertemu dan berbincang
Kemudian melangkah
Ke antah berantah
Disapukannya debu jalanan
Tatkala tertebak
Cemas menyeruak,
oh intuisi
Bertumpu sukma tunggal
Bersajak skematis
Menari rawan hati
Berbisik pada pasir putih
Melegakan
Nyatanya hanya delusi.

/Delusi//
Bogor, Maret 2015.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Ultimate travel goals #1

Someday. Somehow. I will be at these places overseas. Paying myself for these and those years. 
I want to travel to New Zealand because I wanna have a nice nap with the sheeps on the meadow among those hills. I must travel to Japan because I want to taste the real fresh sushi, sasimi, ramen and make my own lunch. I shall travel to Australia because I miss being there, esp in Canberra and Sydney! And I also want to satisfy my old dream to get to the university in Adelaide. I need to travel to US because I've been inspired by the tv series i've been watched lately. I gotta take a yellow cab, have a roadtrip from one state to another with my fellows. Have my brunch. I want to take photos in the McGee Pub(pardon me), get to New Jersey, CA, Hawaii etc. Also I want to have a tour with Gondola and taste how better is italian food cooked by the native, that's why I want to go to Venice Italy.
I really hope that one day I'll be able to travel, or even better if I could stay there to study abroad or work. Or both! I'm so excited. 
Cannot wait to get these list checked!
I am really into this plan.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, slow but sure.